MINE(:

2007-04-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

i am sick of my current blogskin & i want to change it!
spent time searching for it, however to no avail.
hopefully, at the end of my second attempt i'll be able to find my desire skin!
examinations are coming up, STRESS.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

:D

2007-03-31T15:13:00.000+08:00

wooooo!
I must really admit that i am sick of posting.
it seems that i've got nothing much to blog about, it is always the same old things happening around me. in short, my life is simply plain&boring.
study study & study. why do bosses judge people by how many cert they have.
& the MORE the better. The chances of getting employed is much much much HIGHER than people with less cert/no cert. IS qualification sooooooooo important.
SIGH. i am stressed up.
went to macdonalds & have my lunch.
played and joke around with my fellow bandmates(:
U PEOPLE ROCKS. (:
:D :D :D

2007-03-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

standing all by yourself in the middle of the meadow to pose for shots.
-the moment which i longed for.
what else can i make myself contended?
&that's my dream.

i know i am not qualified to be one.
i'll still try my very best.
deity bless me. (:

2007-03-25T12:07:00.000+08:00

HEY! so long since i've last posted.
i am now staring on the screen, thinking of what to post.
alright, first of all for the first time my section was praised by the instructors.
HAHA! the feeling was great great GREAT!
;D

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2007-03-17T13:12:00.000+08:00

;D
i think sleeping at around 3am has become one of my habits.
no matter how hard i tried to send myself to the world of dreams, i failed.
if i sleep at this hour during school day, i might as well forget about even going to school.
LOL.
SCHOOL, sigh.

went for movie ytd.
The Haunted School.
the movie was quite ok, but the last part make no sense to me.
but still,it is worth watching. (:
I uncovered something ytd, she's totally disgusting.

2007-03-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

i hate my damn brother.
HE;S THE ONLY GUY THAT MADE ME SO MAD!
i've got NO idea on how to deal with him!
MAN, WHY DO I HAVE SUCH AN ASS TO BE MY BROTHER?

2007-03-12T09:56:00.000+08:00

i suppose it will be a wonderful day today because the moment when i am awake i am feeling happy! ;D
u know, if every start of the day i am like tht, my life would be far more interesting.
k, i am going to attend the ceremony now. ROM

HAHAHA!
BYEBYE

2007-03-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

second post for the day.
i went out today, & guess what it is SOO SUNNY!
((: TWO SMILE.
& its been a wonderful day too! (((: THREE SMILE
i bought something which i wanted so badly, EVERLAST WATCH ((((: FOUR SMILE!
hehehehe; i <3
& next on the list is tht newurbanmalebag. gonna save up & buy. heh.
its costly but i know myself tht i am not wasting money because i dont usually buy unnecessary stuff for myself. instead, i'll use the money to eat expensive yet sumptuous meal (:
this is what i usually do after 5 tedious days of studies.

---------
i mustn't fall into trap in any time during this 2 yrs.
i can't & i mustn't.
my mind is set.

2007-03-10T12:14:00.000+08:00

it's a wonderful Saturday & instead of going out i am now typing on a keyboard;looking at the computer screen. In actuality, i am

dreadfully

bored.

i dont know if i should go out today. the sky seems to be getting darker & i don't like to carry an umbrella with me. &&& i don't like to go shopping during rainy days because it can be such a hassle as you need to carry an umbrella when going from malls to malls.
I LOVESUNNY DAYS. (:
my phone was confiscated ytd by some stupid idiotic big ass.
& only can i have my phone back on wed.
IT'S HOLIDAY YOU KNOW, FUCKER?
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO CONTACT WITH MY FRIENDS WHEN MY ALL MY CONTACT NUMBER IS SAVED IN THE PHONE.
WHY DIDN'T U ALLOW TO BE GET BACK MY PHONE ON THE VERY DAY IT WAS CONFISCATED ?YOU SAID IT IS BEING UNFAIR TO OTHERS BUT LOOK,U ALLOWED OTHERS.
IS THIS WHAT U MEAN BY BEING FAIR?
i know longer ago tht u've been eyeing on me.
& u're trying to make things difficult for me. U ASS.

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT THE B NOW. IT IS EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING.
but i know i can NEVER BE GRANT TO DO THAT.
BECAUSE U'RE THE TEACHER& I AM THE STUDENT!

2007-03-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

HEY YO! this page gave me a bit of a jolt at the point of time when i was looking through my tag board.
band member? LOL at first i thought i'd leave those irrational remarks alone. but come to think of it, i should instead sort things out as it will benefit both parties.
k, first thing first. i never talk to people?
er, i guess u dont understand/know me.
so i think u should know me more before making that remark. (: peace.
stare at you?
oh well, i am a senior in band who cannot tolerate behavior tht break the band rules.
& could also not tolerate people not respecting the seniors/leaders/instructor especially when u people are just a mere juniors in band. (:
so i supposed you fall into one of the category which make me do tht EVIL? thing to you.
i dont feel a single bit of guiltiness as i am fulfilling what i should do as a senior in band.
i am bitchy? erm, thanks for your comment. i accept it ;D
i am not a beauty? yes right,but did i ever say that i am one?
i am not blaming u or something((:
get the facts right.

2007-03-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

hey. eh, i think more people are viewing my blog now.In other words, it is no longer a private page anymore. so i guess it's time for me to get a new blog.
but i am super lazy & that it is a hassle to change this&that. lol
alright, i am going to get it done sometime in this month of march.
;D
hopefully, spirit of bmb will return.

it is sort of a torture to miss someone.

2007-02-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

hey..
i am having random thoughts in mind now.
a mixture of feeling; happy, gutted. AIYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA/
dont know what i am doing also.
there is some kind of fear inside me.

2007-02-25T14:11:00.000+08:00

(:
my body is aching all over. LOL.
class outing was not really fantastically enjoyable, but it was fun after all.
the weather sucks like shit k. it rains, it stops & it rains again.
i thought i would be able to get myself tanned after this trip, but i didn't!
after few hours of playing, running in& out because of the rain we finally stopped playing and went washing up.
& the moment i got out of the toliet, i SAW THE SUN. SICKENINGass "£$%&**^%$
SO idiotic. i went sentosa twice, guess what. BOTH WERE ON RAINY DAYS. sad-ed.
k, next week i will initiate a outing to sentosa AGAIN.
let's see whether it rains.
alright, comes to the playing part
we played captain's ball & volley ball!
IT'S FUN!!! MR NG joined in the fun too. haha!
what i can say is, I LOVE VOLLEY BALL. hehehe.
23 turned up for the class outing. half the class. haha!
not too bad. but my expectation was like 40?
LOL.went to haagen dazs at vivo.
ordered ''divine''.
the ordering part was the most hilarious part during the whole trip.
hahaha! hoh xuanwei?
LOLS!
bascially, the whole trip was all about FUN!
;D

2007-02-21T19:02:00.000+08:00

hey folks (:
today isn't a day for me. um, was rather moody for no reason.
you know, there's one place that captured my attention.
& now, i really reeally want to go!
although many say that it isn't a suitable place for the girls,especially teenagers, i am still so eager to go. sadly, i can't get in. BUT, i'll still try my very best to get in there! -ROARSSS!
!!!!!!!

this particular ''abcde,'' shan't reveal the exact name dont allowed me in!
it's so darn frustrating when u came all the way there thinking of having some fun and you're not allowed to go in when all of those that came with u were allowed to.
.CAN U ALL IMAGINE??! stupiiiiiid right?!
it's the first day of new year know, that stupid----- spoiled my day!
& i'll definitely go when i hit that ACCEPTABLE age!

:you&you& you.

2007-02-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

tequila sunrise (:

2007-02-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE (:
I've great fun & i enjoyed all the activities.
besides having fun & enjoyment, there's one MAJOR problem that i'll have to face up with & it will definitely need sometime.
- it is GAINING UNWANTED FATS.
with all those tarts,love letter, peanuts placed infront of me;
damn, i guess i really put on some weight within this two days.
the moment i grab one & eat, i'll keep eating. damn damn!
kept telling myself that it'd be the very last piece for the day but it doesn't seems to help. LOL
-fats SHOOO!.
collected angbao& blah.
today's the second day& school is reopening. 0;
sian, SO MANY DAMN HOMEWORK.
urghhhhh!

at times, i wonder if i am still a somebody to you,
a person who u may be thinking of sometimes.
what image should i be portraying to you? -i dont know.
& i think avoiding is what i can do to forget.
i am not here harping and clinging to the past. who doesn't want to move on?
it is simply too hard. but i must.
i wonder if i'll receive any msg from you on the eve of new year.
- i receive nth.
actually i wanted to send, but.. ya.
aiya, whatever it is.
u wont be reading this entry.
happy holiday.

2007-02-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

yooo! (: it's been a wonderful day for me! i am freak happy!

i went on my first trial; guess what?
LOL. I SPENT 78 BUCKS (:
which i think, it is well spent. hee.
feeling refreshed((:

first first, let me sincerely wish my girlfriend, LITIN happybirthday!;D
wonder girl, all the best in whatever you do! strive hard in your studies. let's do that together.

okay, i am really, really getting very sick of something.
yes, i really am.
shit. shit. SHITTTTTTTTT! - I'VE TO VENT OUT MY FUSTRATION.
anyway, a happy day today! right right ying ying?

well, gona save up for something.
gona bring bread to school or skip meal starting from next week!
BYEEEE(:

2007-02-09T20:11:00.000+08:00

a wonderful day for some people, a disastrous for others.
:THE RELEASING OF O'S RESULT.

although i am not the one collecting, i can feel the atmosphere.
the pressure, stressed up,sad,happy.
it was damn scary. what i am hoping for now is to score well for my O's/ im freak scared already.
pleaseeeee. pleasee. i dont want to end up in the institute that i dont want.
i guess im being paranoid. i dont know how my life will be like if i really dont do well.
i did bad enough for my PSLE. i dont want to be such a failure in life. i want to score well..
this october i'd be taking my maths& chinese. i really got to buck up. ):
i am already very stressed up now.

2007-02-04T01:23:00.000+08:00

those were the days.

2007-02-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

camping. last sat.

2007-02-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

2007-02-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

HEY! WE ROCKS! ;D i LOVE them.

2007-02-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

yo! people;D
it's been a fun day today woo! (;
i enjoyed buying clothes!
oh my gawd oh my gawd i love those clothes that i've brought! the money is well spent.
it cost me a bomb though, arnd 200 bucks.
i wonder how did i spent so much on just a few things.
i was really shocked when calculate. but nonetheless, i enjoyed! (:
gona save up for facial& stuff. i'll resist the temptation of food. i can do it!

went to bugis today. && ate pasta mania which cost me like; 17 buck.
LOL. it was a scrumptious meal. (:
we were behaving like some mad women there. HAHA!
TALK loudly, LAUGH loudly , JOKE loudly! LOL
that shows how much fun we had.
butbutbut, sadly, one waiter approached us and told us to lower down our volume.
he spoilt the fun, urg!
after few mins we went off, feeling so like: bu shuang.
haha! we had fun though. ;D

&& there was this women who stared at me for like; NOTHING.
iHATE people who stare without me even doing anything to her.
i was so pissed then. & its not LOOK. it's staring from the top to the bottom. OHMYGAWD.
i dont like i dont like! =x

it was really a day that i've enjoyed most ever since that day.
(: hope that my day would be like today everyday. ;D
it was really ------------- to see that pic.
it ---------------. yup.
really very -------.
sigh.

ALRIGHT! THATS ABBOUT IT. ((:
I WANT MACDONALDS FOR BREAKFAST TOMORROW! I WANT! ((:
HEHEH.

2007-02-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

2007-02-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

ain't this cool? ((: we rocks!

2007-02-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

this is that HOONSIANG &me.
LOL. in china.

2007-02-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

HEY;D
today has been an ordinary day with nth to be excited about & nth to look forward to.
well, - VOOOM it goes. a day went by.

some particular matter come constantly flashing in my mind.
it is not something to be real sad about now it is just something hard to believe even though it is conveyed to me personally.
i just can't believe it.
it suck, it really does. why are things like that.
it always happens to me. damn.
everything gona be alright, time heals.
& i guess, everything is a bliss for u now.
i bet, u've already got over EVERYTHING nothing stays in your mind about the past now.
whatever then, i can only blame myself.

anyway people,i am changing url soon!
be updated! (:

2007-01-28T16:52:00.000+08:00

YOU SIMPLY JUST PISSED ME OFF.
yucks.

2007-01-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

a relationship which seems strong, however it blew off just as quick & easy.
5 months, bye.
enjoy your days ahead without burden,worries& get a brand new start &make brand new friends.
make as much as you desire, u dont need to worry now.
well, happybirthday.

2007-01-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

OVER. OVER.
UTTERLY SAD.
PAIN AS IF 500 STABBER HAS JUST PIERCE THROUGH ME.
U'RE BEING REALLY SELFFISH.

2007-01-01T04:02:00.000+08:00

HELLO TO ALL! (:
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
it had been a day full of sadness,disappointment & also happiness.
morning was a disastrous for me. ):
dont want to dwell into the past anymore.

hey & here's the fun part.
went to esplanade with shuting&joan for the fireworks.
it was freaking squeeze-y and had to try our very best to squeeze into the crowd to watch the fireworks.
ALLOOT of darkdark. (:
gawd, & they were there squeezing here and there.
the fireworks was suppppper niiiccce! really! although didn't manage to see all because of that tree infront of me.
coincidentally, on the way there we saw eugene working-in-action. LOL.

BYEBYE (:
BYE TO 2006! HI 2007!
i wish it would be a GOOOD year for me!

2006-12-20T18:36:00.000+08:00

phobia,scared,frightened,fear.
my emotion&attitude had taken over me.
i dont know how to face all these problems anymore.
things is different from what it was last time.
every outing now bound to be something unhappy happening.
last time i would be excited&happy if there were to be any outing.
now, i'll start worrying. worry about what will happen if we were to quarrel or stuff like that.
thats really how i feel.
i love you so much& i really dont know what to do.
it's always my fault. yup..
bye//

2006-12-15T11:47:00.000+08:00

HEY All! i am back ;D
was back ytd but then was too tired to post(:
The Malaysia Trip:
learnt how to play ''CORRECT'' MUSIC.
the adjudicator was great! really really great.
i love it when they take us for music, step by step and make sure all of us understood.
i think thats the way all instructor should be like. umm.
get to know band members even more. the bonding was much much better than last time. (: yay!
last, the shopping trip& the food served was what i've enjoyed.

besides all that, nothing else.
;D

BYE TO MEET KIAYONG. (:

2006-12-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

sad can describe my feeling now.
what am i supposed to do now, my mind is just like a blank piece of paper.
sorry is what i can say. it was meant to be a joke.
tried to call you & msg you, no reply- handphone off.
no way for me to contact you. i know it's all my fault.
shouldn't have said all that.
should reflect upon myself ya?
u off your handphone..
and u really off your handphone.
i am utterly dissapointed;

hey malaysia, i am coming.
bye to all, will be back on the 14 dec.

2006-12-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

second post of the day.
first impression matters to me.umm.
i am really sorry if what i've said earlier hurt you in some way or another.
but i guess thats the only way, which is to speak whats on my mind.it's better to be straight forward.
seriously, i dont know how am i going to face you when school reopens.
i dont know how & deep down i am really bothered by all this things.
really really bothered.
only very normal friend. yea NORMAL. real normal.

2006-12-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

HIEALL ;D
hopefully i'll be able to post some pictures later.
hmm. what should i begin with?
ummmumm..
i am going malaysia on the 11dec to 14 dec.
it's a band indoor competition.
truthfully speaking, i dont feel a sense of excitement at all.
i am not at all keen to go for this trip, however due to some unforeseen reasons i need to go. sigh. ):
this topic relate me to something which i wanted so badly to blog it out.
however, something holds me back.
well, i'll post it when i can't bear with it ANYMORE.

today's a rather boring day for me. packed my luggage and i feel that there's something which i've forgotten.jialat lah. please let me rmb! if not die die liao.
i guess tomorrow would be a great great day for me. heh.
i am meeting kiayong as monday i'll be departing singapore.
sian, not for those reason i WONT be going la. sigh.
OHHHH! MY CAMERA IS RUNNING OUT OF BATTERY. shit. haven't even upload all pictures yet. sian!

BYEBYE.
I LOVE YOU! ;D
-KY.

2006-12-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL! (;
i've got soooo much to post ever since i am back from china.
i took LOADS of photos there && china- xiamen is a very nice place. really.
only realise that during the last few days of the trip.
LOL
ok.the airplane which i took.
at first i was like:ohh my gawd ohh my gawd! gonna fly already! i was exited,yeay. VERY
haha.
but but but! after sitting there for like 1 hr++, it was superduperduper boring.
luckily the time needed to travel wasn't that long ah.
my first visit to blah blah airport was really a unlucky one.it left me with a bad impression & a ''PERFECT'' welcome gift.when i went to collect my luggage which was (in good condition) i received a flawed one instead.
the lock was damaged. i wonder how the staff there handle all our luggage.
so GENTLE of them.
& that was still the first part. to what that i've NVER expected, the handle of the luggage actually came off. -shakehead
this are some of my WONDERFUL experience.

the food there was: WOW.
8 DISHES, 2 SOUP.
it's a luxury.
but then, can't get use to their eating style/habit?
so turned out to be such a waste.
i spent 300 sing dollars there.Didn't buy loads of things though.
wierd. LOL.
buy presents for friends,& yea. some still with me. didnt managed to meet them out.

i LOVE LOVE lujiang.
it was a some sort river i guess. the scenery there was SOOOOO NICE. very very nice.
i'll post some pictures when i am free (:
got to know more friends through this trip. they are all very nice ;D
8(me,huiping,celina,simjun,caixin,oliver,jielun,hunsiang) of us had a some sort -sharing session.
it was fun fun fun! staying up in the room to chat & play.
shared all our secret? LOL.
ended up squeezing inside one of the room to sleep.haha!
xiamen's really a nice place.
if there were to be another chance to go, i'll be the first to sign up! haha!
alright, BYE.

2006-11-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

HELLOO!! ;D
tomorrow's last day for O LEVEL yeayea!
FINALLY FINALLY! (:
& guess what, i need not use my own money to shop in china.
yea! happy happy!
tht would be all about it today!
(:
i love ky.:O

2006-11-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

greetings to all (:
well, it's a tring day for me.Fortunately,it wasn't as boring as i thought it would be.
my knees's so pain can. sian laaaaa ):
ooohh! i am going to china soon. yeah!
i am happy and also sad.
happy because this is my frst time taking plane. & i am very serious about tht.
so quite excited la. lols.
sad because i've to part with my friends& someone special.

i'll miss my friends friends friends!! won't be able to gossip for nine days with them. awww.. sad lahs.

& i'll also miss FROGGY LAU. very very very much.
soooooooo much lah. ):

byebye. i love you(:

2006-11-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

hey all!
long time since i last posted.
because, you know why the computer is always not my turn to play.
sian. );
i was so darn boring. stayed home from morning till late afternoon.
but then, still went out for dinner with him. haha! very very fun.
went to kovan & we ate macdonalds.
& you know what, we met a man who seems like he's out of mind.
he sitted right infront of both of us. he talk to himself & behaved very wierdly.
hmm. very sad lah. but then ya..
stayed there for like 1 hrs plus? lols forgotten. den off we go!
outing with him is always fun fun fun! (;
sorry for all the attitude i've been showing for the past few months.
thanks for you understanding & forbearance.
i love you.

2006-11-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

maybe to some I am extremely EXTREMELY sensitive.
YES I AM.
even small little things like this matters to me.
maybe i am always the one at fault& u're the one whose always giving in.
there's always something tht make me react this way ya?
theres SURELY something. i am not tht unreasonable to the extent tht when i am unhappy, i attitude.IN FACT, i dont.
i don't treat you by how my mood is like.
yes yes. everything's MY fault..
i shouldn't be SOO SENSITVE.
OH YES, I SHOULD CHANGE.

the word sorry:
sorry

adj 1: keenly sorry or regretful; "felt bad about letting the team down"; "was sorry that she had treated him so badly"; "felt bad about breaking the vase" [syn: bad] 2: feeling or expressing sorrow or pity; "a pitying observer threw his coat around her shoulders"; "let him perish without a pitying thought of ours wasted upon him"- Thomas De Quincey [syn: pitying, sorry for(p)] 3: having regret or sorrow or a sense of loss over something done or undone; "felt regretful over his vanished youth"; "regretful over mistakes she had made" [syn: regretful] [ant: unregretful] 4: feeling or expressing pain or sorrow for sins or offenses [syn: contrite, remorseful, rueful, ruthful] 5: bad; unfortunate; "my finances were in a deplorable state"; "a lamentable decision"; "her clothes were in sad shape"; "a sorry state of affairs" [syn: deplorable, distressing, lamentable, pitiful, sad] 6: depressing in character or appearance; "drove through dingy streets"; "the dismal prison twilight"- Charles Dickens; "drab old buildings"; "a dreary mining town"; "gloomy tenements"; "sorry routine that follows on the heels of death"- B.A.Williams [syn: dingy, dismal, drab, drear, dreary, gloomy] 7: without merit; "a sorry horse"; "a sorry excuse"; "a lazy no-count, good-for-nothing goldbrick"; "the car was a no-good piece of junk" [syn: good-for-nothing, good-for-naught, meritless, no-account, no-count, no-good]

yes this is the exact meaning.
some people say for the sake of saying.
the word sorry doesn't comes from them; their heart.
say because they need to?
or sincere?
haha.
according to eustace he said:
he's sorry is always sincere one.
LOL.
i dont mean anything here.
SORRY to me dont make any different.
it's always the thoughts tht count.
i dont need sorry..
i only need some understanding.

2006-11-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY
finally and everything's solved.
it's cause by MISUNDERSTAND.& ya. misunderstanding kills.
yay. over& it's ALL OVER ;D
nth like this gona happen again i guess. hopefully.
okay.
today had been a rather nice day for me.
went to lesson in the morning and ate mac for breakfast. weeeet!
it's been long seens i got a chance to eat.
today's lesson aint tht boring though.
(:
thanks for eveything;MR FROGGY.
really THANKS for everything!
ILOVEEEYOU. ;D

2006-10-29T18:13:00.000+08:00

HEY.
ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE MY DAY;boredom.
went to hougang mall for lunch just now.
shop around with shuting after tht. it's always the same old stuff there.
sian. ):
SIGH. eh.somehow, there's this -kind-of-feeling.
i don't know how to describe.
hopefully we don't drift apart.
ummmm

2006-10-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Apart from the previous post,HERE's my sweet little post to share my joy today.
it was a wonderful day for me i can say. however, not for the WHOLE day.
sorry to YOU. i am really so sorry. saying things w/o going through my brain.
sorry for tht nonsense. (:
went to meet up with shuting&xiaoxuan for lunch in hougang mall today.
they didn't come to school today. LOL. pon sch ah. haha
&& also, went to the vege farms today. was quite fun actually.
some jokers joined this trip too. they really ah. FUNNY i can say. ;D

a exciting yet scary day too!
i'll fill you guys up when i've got the time (:

2006-10-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

EH. I AM DARN HOT NOW.
U FUCKERCHEEBYEASS.
HOW WILL IT END UP LIKE.
PLEASE LAH. WAKE UP LA CHEEBYEFUCKER.
I TAKE MY HATS OFF YOU.
SO, THIS IS WHAT U CALL GOOD CANDIDATES.
BULLSHIT LA PLEASE.
WHY THE HELL DO WE HAVE THIS TYPE OF CHEEBYE FUCKER.
CHAOCHEEBYE LAH.
GO TO HELL LAH.

YOU drived me to all these foul words.
& this is the first time or second time in this year tht i'll ever cursed a person like this.
& i repeat. i am really darn hot.
sorry to all. i am just so pissed off by such a person.

2006-10-24T12:56:00.000+08:00

HEY.
hmm. i guess this post would be a not-so-happy post.
not in the mood today. urg.
mixture of feelings; SAD?ANGRY?HAPPY?
happy because i am going shopping with mum later.
but this excitement faded off in 30 mintues time.
this wasn't how i reacted normally when comes to shopping.
sigh.
just feel like isolating myself to one corner.

HEY BOY. I LOVE LOVE YOU. (:

2006-10-18T19:27:00.000+08:00

RESULTS'S OUT.
GUESS what.
soon,here comes the HOLIDAY.
some people might go: YAY YAY!
BUT i guess for me now. it's gona be SIAN.
aiya, holiday means. SOMETHING which i DONT DONT WANT WANT will surely happen.
IT'S TIRING. read. IT IS TIRING. (:
next thing is, LEAVING school examination.
SIGH SIGH SIGH! LOOK. i emphasis on -LEAVING.
);
so tht means next year;2007
brand new sec 5,4,3,2,1
haha. sian ahh!
sad plus sad plus sad ah. =x
hope tht things will still go the same way.

2006-10-16T13:39:00.000+08:00

HEELOO! (:
i am bored. Really bored mum don't let me out. urg
but but never the mind. i have lots of FUN yesterday.
heee. i LOVE LOVE East Coast Park ;D a very nice place.
especially, tht special spot tht you&me know. haha!
went to the some sort "food court" to eat.
& guess what. my bowl of laksa cost me 4 dollar.
okay. if it's nice and delicious i am very willing to pay. BUT! it's not!
it taste awful. if i am not wrong it is "Roxy laksa" LOL.
yucks. i'll never gona eat tht again. NEVER! (:
left East Coast Park arnd 9.20 to take bus 401.
sway thing was. no bus service for 401 already.
was like. WHATTHEFUCCKK.
need to walk soooo sooo long to the other bus stop.
LOL.
nevertheless, able to reach the bus stop after 15 mintues.
haha.
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WAS; i enjoyed the trip to ECP!
right frog?
HHEE=p

2006-10-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

EXAM'S FINALLY OVER! YAY! ;D
it's relaxing. no more stress! (;
i guess i studied hard for the exams and now i am gona PLAY!
hopefully my result will turn out to be nice. yeay.
not confident though. PLEASE goddess. BLESS me.

went out on friday & yesterday. was fun fun fun!
was with Shuting Xiaoxuan & sally ytd.
went to town and bugis. hahaa.was shopping all the way!teehee=p
searching arnd for my desire sandals. but sway thing was, cant find any!
LOL.
&& we went to eat jap food. super super nice i tell you.
i won't be sick of it if i can eat tht everyday man! (x
going out ltr. yay! yay!
I LOVE EAST COAST! (:

2006-10-11T15:15:00.000+08:00

EXAM EXAM!

2006-08-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

HEYS (:
well, i suppose everything's back to the track.
besides having great difficultly in understanding math & some other problems, the rest went well, smoothly & nice.
i hope my math will improve luhs. it sucks man.

things got sweeter & sweeter. teehee(*:
frog FROG frog. LOL.
i hope it will be the ending tht i've always wanted. haha
thats about it. (=
<33 ky/frog!

Eh i guess you won't get to read this entry.
LOLS. hopefully you don't.
haha!

2006-08-22T19:43:00.000+08:00

(:

it's a tiring day today.
ok. i 'll say quite tired as compared to last time.
wasn't in the mood for the past few days. perhaps it is all because of my sch work.
my mathematic sucks like shit. && it's really like SHIT.
no matter how hard i studied or even dont study, my result will definately be the same.
it is kind of demoralizing lar. i am really quite upset );
nevertheless, i'll still try my best la.
frog is studying right now..
haha!

2006-08-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

YO

had not been posting for quite awhile; urms. kind of sians lars. (:
everything's fine; & i am all the way happy though.
met with some problems last few days however it's already solved!FINALLY.yeah!
kinda have tht sense of relieved.but was somehow guilty also. i didnt meant to leave you all in the lurch.
I'm sorry.

iLOVE fireworks!
=D
&& guess what.
I THINK i miss someone right now.
(*:

2006-08-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

did i make the right choice?
i hope i really do.
i am confused about what to do next.
someone, please lead me the way for me.
-- seems like -- dont care okays.
fuck. the day have finally arrived; happy ehh?
from the expression of -- i can deduce something.
-- cant wait for this particular day to come & ya it's TODAY.
i guessed you should be on clould nine after i spoke to you yeah?
alright. i won't care anymore.
i will just complete whatever thts left for me to do& clear whatever problems before i really --
i 've did my part. i DID NOT leave u guys in the lurch.

OK. enough of all tht.

HEllO! I was having hell lots of fun in the hall today!hhaa
xiaoxuan; xinyi; shuting.
LOLS.
we engaged in whatever activity tht was held on the stage.LOL.
the fun part was the singing part. whewwww*
however; i was really tired. yawns.
went to do project after the whole show. at last, we managed to complete it.
through this project; i LEARNT so LOADS things. learnt about how evil people backstab people.
& guess what. i experience it MYSELF ok.
i hate her luhs. YES YOU. i don't accept any apologies. face the consequences for backstabbing people. if u dare to backstab; then FACE the consequences. pui la.
this girl is from my class.
she backstab numerous number of people.
& tht include me.
i got to know about her fucking comments from my friends.
how dumb are you?! u told people tht is close to me? STUPID IDIOT.

2006-08-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

YAWNNNSSS~
was at home for the whole day.
did house chores for the whole afternoon.
clean my room; mopped the floor&packed my room.
i realised there's so MUCH rubbish inside my room. trashed them all liao.
now my room is clean&nice. hehe. (:
i longed for a ikea trip since last year.
i want to buy lots of stuff to beautify my boring room.
gona get mirror,lamp and boards! (:
BUT BUT BUT! I WANT MONEY! no money how to buy. -.-
MONEY MONEY AR MONEY. I NEED YOU MAN!

2006-08-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

HEY
so long since i blogged.
was busy with my studies-.- real busy.
stay up after mid-night to study. slp @ bout 2 am can!
sooo tired. & i've been doing tht for 4 days in a row. soo soo tired.
i put extra effort in my revision for my addmath.&& nevertheless; my effort's paid off! yeah! (*:
i scored 39/40. WHEEEEEE~
i was so happy! teacher's comments for this paper was: it was damn easy.
i sian1/2 liaos. does this statement suggest tht i am not gona do well for other difficult test?
DONT LOOK DOWN ON ME LEH.

going to dharshini's house tml. i am looking forward to the CURRY CHICKEN.its so damn damn nice okay! yeahh. a scrumptious meal tml. teehee(*:
i've been quite alright for the past few days.
i hope i can be totally alright soon! (:
forgetting the stupid past.

2006-07-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

yeah!
i miss swensen's cookie summit tht i've eaten earlier.
super nice okay! yummyy!
went to town just now & the feeling was different from the previous time.
it was totally shiok.
shop shop eat eat! haha(:
no exam- stress at all!
i ate alot today. pls! i don't want to get fat.
LOL.
ICECREAM;RICE;FRIES;STEAM EGG;CURRY PUFF && LTR SUPPER.
HAHA.

i pity xiaoxuan& shuting.
they were all along bearing with pain. & its because of their new shoe they brought.
lols. & i was like '' xing zai ler hou '' HAHA!
i am waiting for next saturday!
cafe cartel((:

i shall let nature take it courses.
if we are really meant to be, we will be.
i don't know what else i can do. REALLY&SERIOUSLY.
i think the possibility is rather SMALL.
what to do. haha.
lalala~ chia cai xuan; don't let this matter brings you down.

2006-07-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2006-07-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

OOHH HELL.
had my e-math test today.
hell luhs-.- sure get a FAIL.
didnt complete though. (12 marks question) bye bye liao.
passed my math test for only tht pathetic ONCE.
& it's border line pass.
fuck.A1 to F9
can you imagine?!
i am sick of mathematics can!
always fail&fail.
used to <3 mathematics, but now i seriously hate it lar!

HAIS.):

2006-07-24T18:02:00.000+08:00

i've already think through.
i know whats best for me& what is not.
yes. i admit i am quite upset now.
thanks for doing things tht pissed me off.
i am right awake now.
do whatever things you want.
i'll try all my best not to give any fuck care.
once again, i SALUTE you lars.
* after blahblahblah~, i want to thanks all my girlfriends.
thanks for staying with me & listen to me when i am down with problems.
I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!; )

2006-07-23T16:44:00.000+08:00

check out friday's blog!
i've completed the story.

2006-07-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

this is a piece of story of a girl:

she;s fortunate. she has a family which can be considered a happy one.
she gets along well with her relatives;cousin. she's on cloud nine whenever she's with them.
she came from a average family & she's the second child.

when she entered secondary one, she gets to know many nice friend.
those friends were always with her when she's down with problems.
she's bless to have them(:
she joined a particular cca grp too. she made loads of friends there.
they went through thick&thin together with her.
her year in secondary one was a pleasant one.

one fine day. she gets to know this particular guy.
her impression for this guy was really bad at first.
however, they began to talk to each other after sometime.
her impression for this guy changed gradually after they got to know each other.
she find him a nice guy.
soon, they fell for each other.

they started their affiliation on 9 of december 2004.
they had wonderful time together.
talk to each other every single day.& she's happy to have him as a bf.
they quarrel & had sad times too.
they were both very stubborn & were bad-tempered.
however,they manage to get back to each other after the quarrels.
she fall hard for this guy. &<3>
they were serious for each other.
however, their affiliation didnt last long.
it ended on 21 feb 2005.
she doesnt know why they broke up.
so, she went to ask tht guy.tht guy told her tht he have no feeling for her anymore.
she cried when she heard this.
she was totally depressed.

from then on, her life was miserable.
she was fucking sad and heartbroken.
the month of febuary was a disaster for her.
it was like as if 500 knife had pierce through her heart.
it was painful.
she was like a living dead human.
noone could understand how she felt.
she was miserable.
&missed him like shit.

her friends around her encourage & cheer her up.
she was lucky to have them by her side.
however it doesnt help much.
it was so unfortunate tht her exam's period fell on the month of feb.
she has got no mood, no nth to study.
everything seems going out of her way & the worse things was tht she didnt do well for her exam.
& again, she was terribly upset of her results.
she set high expectation for herself %2

2006-07-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

i tried all my means to talk nicely! yes. its oready to my limit.
& yet i get the two words reply; i wrote like about 1 paragraph.
wtf? can you imagine!?
well, its OKAY.
WAAHH. SHOULD I LAUGH OR SHOULD I CRY?
i think i can understand luhs.
okay caixuan, its time.

2006-07-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

went for dinner @ about 8.00pm.
tht meal suck can.
i am like eating vege all the way.
vege plus rice. eeekkss.
no choice must eat.
at first i complain&complain in the end; got scolding.
SIAN.
life's BORING.

2006-07-16T11:15:00.000+08:00

yippee; i am happy.
time can definately heal it all.
eventually, i can still forget.
it is only the matter of time(:

went outing with 'gang' ytd.
Sally&Shuting&Meishan&Xiaoxuan&Caixuan.
it was fffuunnnn :p
again, we went to marina bay for steamboat! teehee.
we went there for both the saturdays. haaa
it was still fun though.
played & joked arnd ytd. haah
we made darn loads of noise.haha
include screaming shouting! LOL.
we stayed there for 2 hrs for our meal.
wanted to make sure tht everyone's full then we can go.
hehe. we paid money ehh. so must eat! haha
then when everyone's full, we mix all the raw food tgt.
& guess what? we lay all these food onto the bbq pan.
&& we cooked it. haha!
add whatever we found on the table to the food. haha!
chilli& cooking oil. LOL.
we fry the raw crab. haha.
the end product were all like: OOH MY DEAR!
we noticed the staffs there were watching us, so we stopped. haha.
although we made a mess; we clear them! lols
put everything together for them.
instead we made life easier for them okays!LOL.

afterwhich. we went on to the acade. (:
spent for like about 2dollar. haha
& den we went to wait for bus 400.
i supposed theres a NDP preview goin on.
cos we saw fireworks. LOL.
naturally, we go like: WAAHH.NICE NICE.
den got this blardy idiotic guy.
mumbling to his friends this: never see before mehs. what's so special about it.
we were darn fed up upon hearing this remark.
i shouted: WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM.for like; 3 times
(indirectly scolding him) i don't think he knows tht i am refering to him.
he's gang turned and look at me. LOL. i don't care.
we got so fed up you know! hahas.
tht stupid guy was wearing a black jacket.
its not hot at all okay in fact its warm!. act only luhs.
then xiaoxuan was like: very cold mehs?!
we increase our volume when we said tht,but i don't think he can hear.
too bad so sad. (:
met this stupid blardy idiot tht spolied our mood.
took the same bus with them. eeks!

next, we went to orchard.
were shopping for xiaoxuan's stuff.
couldn't find any thts she wants.LOL.
TOO BAD LUHS. XIAOXUAN. ((:
&& we went to - ciniplex-(dont know how to spell)
haha. there were quite a number of ppl there mostly adults.
perhaps they were there for the purpose of watching movie.(":

the outing was fun! (: teehee.we took photo together too.
might post some of it someother day. (:

tralalaa~

2006-07-16T11:12:00.000+08:00

(*; i am on the positive side already.

2006-07-15T11:44:00.000+08:00

woke at at 9.30am today; haa but went back to sleep again. (X
then woke up at about 11.30. only manage to sleep for like; 2hrs.
haven't eat my breakfast yet. ouuhh! i am craving for food. teehee.

i am mentally tired.
i don't want to be forced.
PLEASE LAAAAA.
should continue or not?
knn lars.
- i am getting agitated.

yaya. FUCK OFF you.
changed my pathetic life; ONCE AGAIN.
i've it enough.

2006-07-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

i am darn darn MOOD-LESS today.
& its for no particular reason. uhms.

i've done my mathematics homework.
finally; i did my homework.
proud of myself(:
i've made the first step to improved my math.
a good beginning?(:

i was given the two pathetic choice.
& i want neither of it.
seriously; i don't want.
i've got no other choices.
);
sign.
do it just for them):
&guess what.
tht soul ain't there for me. again & again.
aiyahh. i am getting sick of everything.
REAL SICK!
didn't even bothered to talk to me.
& thts what i expected.

took a few glance at my phone in class today.
& this time round; its only for 2-3 time.
yeah. massive improvement~
hahaa.eh. maybe tml i WONT do tht, ((:

& thts about it today!

2006-07-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

just back home from Hougang mall.
kind of feeling- 'sian' now.
don't know whats up with me.
its an ordinary day today, nothing to get excited/happy about.
my life is just simply about; studying.band.doing homework.eat.sleep.hanging out for lunch.
&& THTS ALL.my way of life
sign. *shakehead

sometimes i asked myself;
how my life will be like without tht soul's existence.
would i be the same or not?
:*/

glancing at my phone for nothing.
checking whether is there any new msg for me.
i do tht VERY often.
isn't tht being retarded?
yes i supposed. but i just can't help it.
i get rather excited when i received a new msg;
however, tht excitement wouldn't last.
&its only for a few second.
and why is it so?
uhm. its because; i saw the sender's name.
its not the one tht i wanted it to be.
this happens frequently. yes its FREQUENTLY.

maybe i shouldnt be thinking of all this lars.
thinking too much maybe.
concentrate on my studies please!

2006-07-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

changing blog soon.
i think most probably i'll make tht a private one(:

2006-07-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME!

2006-07-10T20:37:00.000+08:00

not being sensitive!
i feel this way.
SERIOUS & serious?
WHICH IS larger?
its darn obvious right?
this is just an example.

2006-07-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

*whew
woke up at about 3 plus in the noon today.
kind of tired though.
haaha
maybe because i slept too late last night.

enjoyed last night outing!
it was SO SOSO fun!=D
went down to marina bay to celebrate xx birthday.
tian tian hai xian-blah blah.
haha.
we occupied two table. and was so noisy!(:
we had our table filled with sec3s and 2 other people.
the other table was filled with aa friends.
ate soo much last night. thanks to our chef LOL
jackson and louis.
their cooking skill were: OH MY GOD; ANYHOW.
bbq fishball?
scramble egg?
OOHH MY GOD.haha
no choice luhs. we tired all their '' new invention''
haha. luckly our stomach can take it.

& thanks to junkai for the prawns! haha
if not we wont get to eat them.
LOL.

&& the tua suan!
woots. super duper nice. haha
wanted to queue for more; but so sad luhs. did not do tht.

hmm. got to know more about my sec2s friends.
they are wonderful! <333 them!

wow. & this part.
IM SO SO DARN ENVY!(:
i will fill this part the other time.
(:

i think im missing tht soul now.

2006-07-08T14:26:00.000+08:00

*my loveable section!<3>

2006-07-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

no lesson today; career seminar(:
learnt something useful there.
yeah(:
finally got to clear my doubts during the seminar.

& here's the sickening incident tht spoiled my mood.
started all this in the canteen.
fuck you lars.
darn pissed off with her.
PLEASE DON'T LET ME BLOW TO MY TOP.
THANKS.
.

went to work after school;
didn;t work for quite a while & was not very use to it.
haahaa. The sales last time were all btr!
how sad.
only manage to earn $25.*pathetic.
still thought i'll be able to earn like about 40 bucks at the end of the day.
BUT BUT! -.-SAD LUHS
it was so so so tiring. really.
was all the way walking and walking.
and this lasted for about 3 hrs. its darn tiring luhs!
haha. but it was fun& really fun!
met some kind of funny people along the way.
there was this guy. you know.
we approached him. asking him to buy stuff from us.
at first he was like; reluctant. haha. typical singaporeans.
but after our ''chanting'' he took out hes money(almost ready to buy our stuff)
and started to ask us questions.
we attend to all hes questions lars! have to wad. LOL.
& at last he wants to buy,
*sweat.LOL.
HOWEVER we met with some problem upon exchanging money&the icecream.
he claim tht we were lying to him! GOD. haha.
at first we were like: HUH?! WAD?
haha normal reaction lars.
den hoh after all the enlightenment and everything to him, we found out tht it was all misunderstanding!LOL.
then FINALLY, sold the icecream. haha.
hes action and the way of talking was like; cute. LOL.
joking arnd with us. haha. & i guess he was just back home from NS.
saw him unpacking hes stuff.LOL.

we met some kind hearted souls too!
thousand thank you to them lars((:
& thanks auntie; she gave each of us a bottle of mineral water.
so kind right. at tht moment we were craving for water lohs. haha.
thank you<3

actually i am quite inspired by the 3 scholars.
what they said today was totally meaningful& useful to me.(:
eh eh hope to be like them! haha! dream on lar me.

stay on; YOU.
piggy;;;
blury.
=D
love this *lury. (:
theres no point denying. love means love. RIGHT? haha
i think tht soul wont get to view my blog, so its okay! hehe.
again & again. SIGN. ):

2006-07-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

they are appalling!
pui.
tht bunch of shity sickening idiotic digusting girls;
stop all your digusting actions.
especially tht particular one.
i' ll dig out your blardy eye ball.
did i ever do tht to you? HUH?!
please get everything clear.
& why the hell are you showing me tht stupid face.
IF I GOT THE CHANCE I'LL DEFINATELY SMACK UR BLARDY STUPID FACE.

& MAKE THIS CLEAR.
KNOW WAD YOU ARE SAYING.
WATCH YOUR WORDS.
i hate you all to the core.
(:
continue to show all your nonsense to me.
i'll be there to entertain you.
please find sometime to look at your mirror.
dont dirty others one.

2006-07-03T20:17:00.000+08:00

woke up early today.
7am! & its youth day loh. should be slping luhs!
its all over & yeah. (:

went to bugis today; a window shopping.
EEEEYYYUUUSSEE.
thts so sad! wanted lots of things but no $$ laahh.
&&& we found one sumsung phone in the toilet!
and thts a slide up phone.
we intended to keep and sell it away.
however,in the end we returned the phone!
HONEST YEAH?
HAHA!
BOWEN BAND MEMBER MAHHS!((:
we tracked the owner by calling the contacts found inside the phone.
& ltr we found out tht she own a shop in bugis
SOSOSO we found her and returned the phone.
she seems very happy leh!(:
she said she will write in to the school. LOL.
& then we were like: OOH?
haha!
SMILE(:
did something good today luh! haha

WAAAHH!
nth at all!
& its NOTHING AT ALL
SIGN. AIYAH. should have already be prepared for this.
):
i like to ask why.
&& WHY?
A NOBODY TO YOU.
tmd.
ya lah. i cant compare to them. (:

2006-07-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

its first of july!
& guess wad?
our band competition had ended.
although we lost, we lost with pride.
we all put in our best. there's nth to regret((:

BOWEN MILITARY BAND ROCKSSS!
(:
<3>

we are already a winner.
we've achieved the GOLD WITH HONOURS.
aft all a finalist band.
(:

saw J*** AND H**** in the canteen while we were having our lunch.
seriously i HATE to see them.
they are just some kind of irksome bunch.
feel like slapping right on their face.
simply too annoying.
& please dont give ANY MORE comments or WADEVER to us.
its SO SO irritating.
maybe those encouragement u gave us was truely from your heart luh.
but to me it is just some kind of unnesserary encouragement.
in simple words; you really pissed me off!

to my fellow band mates:
HEY!
cheer up guys!
((:
LOVE YOU GUYS.

BOWEN MILITARY BAND; THE ONE WHICH
GIVE US THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES.

2006-06-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

ain't a good day today.
i am sad i am depressed i am like EVERYTHING!!
FUCK FUCK AND FUCK!
sorry. just feel like shouting right now!
i cant control my emotion.
why?
hate to see myself behaving tht way.
SORRY. to all my friends;bandmates;girlfriends.
i think you all know who you are. its too long for me to name out now(:
i spolied all your moods by behaving tht way
sometime i really feel like bursting out my tears!but i can't!
so sorry! thts the reason why i don't want to hang out with u guys so often now.
):

& at the same time.
thanks for tolerating me(:
i appreciated wad you guys told me ealier.
i'll heed every of ur advices.

this is for someone:
although we aint close.
you encouraged me; cheer me up.
thanks!
i can sense tht you are really a true good great friend of mine!
& i am sure all your words came truely from ur heart.
((:

meishan;
i won;t break my promise.
i am strong. yeah.
<3 ya.

&; i finally understood the defination of true friends.
Every hitch is a stepping stone to success.

2006-06-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

i realized tht i am no longer like wad i used to be.
really & seriously.
i feel it myself.
my friends arnd me said so too.
saying tht my face look so gloomy and tired.
i agreed with them too. ):

under loads of stress.
i think there's no one adding stress to me but its me who's adding it to myself.
maybe some do tht indirectly.
things just can't be right. why?
i tried so hard to cheer myself up.
ha
but so sad luhs. din manage to do it.
on the surface, you see my smiling&joking arnd,
but deep down. ha. you know. (:

i am getting hot- tempered nowadays.
);

i<- you.

i doubt so.
provisional.
yeh.

2006-06-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

first!
i want to thank;
Shuting meishan zumei joan alvina lianghao amin huiping rodger (:
thanks for everything!
i really appreciate wad u all did to me. (:
you guys really cheered me up. & i got so HIGH ltr on.
''pole dance''~!
<3>
now then i got to realised this;
wad i really need was friends. yes! friends.
friends tht can listen to me and share thoughts with.
and i found all these friends in band.
they add colours and joy to my life.
not only those tht i've written up there.
its the whole BB. <3

i wasnt so well in the noon.
don't know why.
having a some sort battle with my tears.
but so sad. i lost in the end.
tears just kept rolling down my cheek.
tried all my best to brush it off but i cant manage to stop crying.
so its still the same. ):
sorry. i cannot control myself. i know i cant do tht infront of u all.
)':
the more i think of it the more i get agitated.
i think i am the kind tht cant be stressed.
so ya. decided.

thanks hasanah!
<3
great great senior of mine!

soon i'll be able to. trust me & i trust myself.
<3>
rubbish.

2006-06-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

waaaa
one word; TIRED.
did nt exactly enjoyed the past few weeks of holiday.
din manage to go out as often as how i used to last year.
thinking of the homework i've accumulated since the start of the holiday, im gona FAINT.
ssiiaannss lars.
don't plan to do it also.
just prepare to get scolding from the subject teacher.
i'll do it after 1st of july can.
urg.
stress.

no one will ever understand how i felt la.
seriously.NO ONE.
):

wads with you?
let bygones be bygones luhs.
please dont remind me about all those things.
i know i am to blame.
but thts already the past right!
no point lars. (:
push all the blame to me.
i' ll be able to accept it.

determination;
i think i've made the right decision.
but but! i'll still think about it again luhs.
try my best.
most probably i wont be changing my mind.
respect my decision guys.
(:

no mood.
thts all!

2006-06-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

it was a bad day for me. maybe a bad day for me only.
):

i am like so useless luhhs.
i couldnt even complete a simple task.
cb la.
darn fustrated now.

you were always not there when i needed someone to confide to.
it is always my girlfriends!

2006-06-21T13:02:00.000+08:00

just got up from bed (:
have not eaten my breakfast, no its lunch cum breakfast.
haha
so huuunnggryy right now. ):
hmm. isn;t a moody day for me today.
maybe i should say tht i am immune to EVERYTHING so everything seems normal to me luhs.
just doing wad i can now.
doing the best tht i could. (:
no point being fustrated or sad now lahs.
no matter wad, i still have to face the problem.
SO i'll face it with a cheerful attitude.
((:
i rather be optimistic than pessimistic.

i understand how poor children felt when there's no food for them!

(: to be continue.
w/s for the day: everything will turn fine and great.

STAIN! A STAIN

2006-06-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

i am so so so SICK of everything.
really sick of everything luhs. 0:
wads all this rubbish man.
why isit tht we must always listen.
we have our own views, we want to make the decision
ultimately its us ok?
not you all. i know its wasnt fair to say so.

i am not here hinding anythng. this wad how i felt.
cant blame them for behaving like tht also.
can understand lars. (:
please kindly try and understand US.and i mean US.

i am somehow afraid, there's fear inside me.
but but! i dont think ANYone out there understand.
maybe one or two. my bestie.
they are Wonderful.
without them i don't think i am able to carry on with all this.

am i like kind of irresponsible?
i am so sorry lars.
seriously,i dont like people to force me to do thngs tht i dont want to do.
i'll just do things tht i think is correct.
believing in my own judgement maybe.
?

i am just not fit to be one luhhs.

hmm. i've totally NO confident now.
not even a single bit.
i shall just believe in DESTINY, FATE.
shall ask god wad is it tht will truely happen to me and you.

feeling down right now.
): not in any mood luhs.
aint the one?
its time for me to. yups.

2006-06-18T20:04:00.000+08:00

just finished my dinner! yeahs!
it was so different today my parents ordered pizza for us.
haha!
but so sad i am having a bad tummy ache now and its all because of the pizza i ate earlier!
WAAHHH~
PAIN, PAIN AND PPPAAIINN.
ate to much i think=p

stayed at home for the whole afternoon today.
kind of happy though.
don't know why. haha
i think there's something wrong with my handphone.
sian sia.
the battery i think.
go flat so easily.FCCUUKK.
NEW one somemore.
and tht stupid memory so darn LITTLE.
need to buy memory card-.- sian
one is like dont know how expensive how to buy!
i got no more extra money to buy lo. arghh ):
i want to get tht addidas (victory mesh jacket) !!!
wanted it long ago but so sad luhs!
I WANT I WANT I WANT!!
(:
should ask my parents to buy for me as birthday present!

SIANS.
maybe..hmm
PERPETUAL OR PROVISIONAL
<333

STOMACHACHE!

2006-06-17T15:29:00.000+08:00

woke up at about2 in the noon
yet i am still very tired! ):
i changed my phone to k750i already. (:
don't really like it actually. my desire phone was N3250
but so sad luhhs, its too expensive.
cant afford! ahaha
they say its already very good tht they allow me to change my phone.and i am still like; complaining.
allow me to change my phone ; USING my OWN money. -.-
haha!
maybe they want me to save all those money than to spend it on unnessesary things. don't know them.
sians

getting more stress day by day.
hopefully - allow me to do so. i really want a free and a stress-less life
although they say it will all be fine after tht, i still dont think so.
its not so easy luhhs.there's surely problem after tht
i hope they can understand me lars.
it restrict me on doing alot of things, i want to be myself.

sometimes i did nt do it on purpose, really.
i don't know why but everytime i tried. it failed.
i'll change la.
but sometime wad you say really make me darn pissed off.
darn angry to the extend tht i dont feel lky talking to you.
i think we are those tht can only talk when nessesary.
if not, theres nth common between us tht we can chat about.
we cannot clique.
i'll change myself la. urg.
i know by saying sorry nth could be solved but still, sorry. thousand sorry to you.

he's like a stain!

let nature take its courses. (:
cheers(:

2006-06-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

i am not in the mood now. no i should say not in the mood for the whole of today.
dont ever take me for granted.
if i am capable of doing that, i'll have done that last year.
i will definately force myself to do it NOW.
NO MATTER WHAT,I'LL MAKE MYSELF CAPABLE OF DOING IT.
you can be attitude, so can I.
its now YOU.not me.
i won't give any damn.
i've my style, my mood.

damn you. pissed off.

2006-06-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

i am now darn stress up!
i've no idea can't think of any thng right now.
my mind are now like one blank sheet of paper.
sians.
i need god's help. (:

i am getting my phone ltr! yeahs! hope i wont regret luhhs.
gona use my own money to buy, sad.
shouldnt be using computer rtye now! haha
gotta go~

ws:/things between us will turn better. (: how will the ending be like. *wondering.

2006-06-14T01:49:00.000+08:00

whew! this is my second blog. the first one was a total failure hope this one will not die off so easily.
yeahs! guess wad? i am getting new phone tml. finally able to change phone(;
had a bad headache today, and it was really bad. luckily it was much mre btr in the noon.
this is for somebody: please stop ur nonsense, you ain't one now so just shut your mouth. we dont need your comments.

1:59 am, wednesday.